I never know what to say when people talk about trading one addition for another addiction. Is there such a thing as an addictive personality? And if so, are people with addictive personalities attracted other extreme things to replace the initial addiction? If there is such a thing as trading one addition for another, can I run myself into happiness? Can I run until I reach total bliss and true enlightenment?
When I saw the other day that Phillip Seymour Hoffman died of a drug overdose, I have to be honest, I shrugged, oh well. I know that is horrible. Judge if you must, but addicts and alcoholics die all of the time, and if I wept every time one did, I don't think I would be able to function. A day or two later, I saw that that Phillip Seymour Hoffman had 22 years clean and sober. I must admit, this got to me. It scared me.
I'm really not that into movies, theater, or acting but I can relate to this addict. As a clean and sober human being, I understand the anxiety and depression that goes along with this brutal disease. I have known so many that have died from the disease of addiction. The key word is DISEASE. While one may have the initial choice to use alcohol or drugs, those that have the disease of addiction cannot stop. It is not a choice. They need help, support, and treatment. The treatment one receives can come in the form of a 12 step program, religion, therapy, whatever. I pray that those that need help get there quickly and with as little damage to themselves and others as possible.
Can a person enter the world of endurance and trade the original addiction for this new addiction? I think not. While I do buy into the idea of an addictive personality, trading addictions seems like a bunch of bullshit. I could run my brains out. I could run until I vomit and collapse. I am still a recovering alcoholic and addict. Nothing I will ever do during the entire course of my life will change this. I can abstain from alcohol and drugs. I can pray for a daily reprieve from the depression and anxiety that comes from this disease. But, no matter how long or how far I run, this disease it right at my heels. And the moment I believe that the disease is gone is the moment my life will go to hell.
Running and yoga have undoubtedly changed my life. I am so blessed to have the ability to engage in these activities at a very intense level. The demons that have shown themselves to me during exercise are brutal. Maybe that's why I run. I run to feel those demons. I run to leave them on the trails. I move through the pain rather than choose stagnation and death. Nothing I have ever felt while engaged in endurance sports comes close to the hell that I have survived. And that is what addiction is people. It is hell.
It took me many years to understand that to move through pain is to feel it. There is no other alternative. So, no, I have not replaced my addiction. I have found a way to feel. I have found a way to live. Fear is no longer an option. Avoiding fear, avoiding emotion, and attempting to control is like having a fist fight with the ocean. Swing away bitch. Keep swinging. How's it working for you? You need more? Ok. Still fighting? Sometimes I have to collapse to understand.
Again, please understand that addiction is a disease. I have chosen endurance sports as a way to live. I have been blessed with life. And life, for me, sometimes means pain. So, no… I haven't replaced the old addiction with a new one. I've used a new way of living to keep me from engaging in the futile existence I once knew.
Bottom line, if you need help, ask for it. Running is great, yoga is cool, but addiction can be deadly. If I can be of help in anyway, or just listen please reach out to me.
I am one of those crazy guys you often hear about - the guy that went from a couch potato to an Ultra Distance runner. I went from being 75 lbs overweight and very inactive to running five marathons in 12 months, and running my first 50K Ultra in late February 2013!
Before you stop reading because you are not this crazy, I want you to stick with me a little longer. About three years ago I decided I was tired of being overweight and unhealthy. I have five kids and I want to be around to see my grandkids, plus my wife of 27 years wants to keep me around a bit longer! I started my journey by making small changes in my diet. These were little thing I did over time like adding more fruit to my daily routine, eating more veggies, cutting out the sodas and sweet tea, etc. I eventually went all plant-powered and began my marathon training program 12 months after I began the changes.
I personally followed a version of Jeff Galloway’s run/walk method and I slowly built up my distance to a marathon. In Dec 2012, I ran my first marathon in 18 years! I was hooked after that and I needed more! I ran another marathon in July and took 30 minutes off my time by slowing down my long training runs and building up my zone 2 base. In November I ran the Rock and Roll Marathon in San Antonio and then a double marathon in Dallas on New Year’s Eve and New Year’s Day!
I will admit I have an additive personality so I typically go all in; however, the lessons I learned can apply to most people wanting to run long distances.
I have spent a considerable amount of time learning about nutrition and fitness. My biggest training goal was to do all this injury free! It is not much fun to set goals and then have to sit out as the race goes on without you. Why do I share this? Well over the last two years I have talked to countless friends at the gym, local running clubs and online about training. The most common theme I see is overtraining or doing too much too soon. For me, it took almost six months to go from the couch to six miles comfortably! I trained for another year before I ran my first marathon. I did what most people don't – I had a plan.
Whether your goal is a 5K or a 100 miler - you must have a plan. It is too easy to listen to everyone else, get confused and try to do too many of the things you have been told at once. Even worse is going out wanting to run a race and not having any plan at all - that is a recipe for disaster. Now I certainly recommend getting advice from others experienced runners, but in the end you cannot make changes to your routine on a regular basis and expect good results. Too many times runners are confused and try to incorporate too many things at once. Some of the confusion comes from the industry - not all runners agree on how to train, you see this often in magazines such as Runners World. Now I will admit there are several ways to go about training. There is no one “right” way - you must find what works for you. Stick with a solid foundation, make small tweaks along the way but see your plan through.
I share this because many new runners start out going too fast, too far, or don't make the right nutritional choices to support their goal. Many runners begin running to lose weight, but they do not change anything about their diet. Whether you are plant-powered like me or like to eat your meat, you must eat real food! It is that simple! Stay away from the GUs and gels. Avoid sugary sports drinks like Gatorade, and just stick to water. And please do not listen to the commercials about chocolate milk! For your daily diet get plenty of fruits and veggies. If you continue to eat fast food or meals from a box - then you may find your goals much harder to reach. I guarantee it is a lot more fun to run at your ideal weight than carrying an extra 20 lbs!
Lastly find a program that matches your needs and goals. This can be through a coach, a local running club, or a program such as Jeff Galloway’s. It is heartbreaking to see friends on a path to injury. Even though I offer some advice they still believe “they can do it” and end up getting hurt and missing the race.
Don't let this happen to you. Reach out to qualified individuals or programs that you can trust.
Good luck and I would love to hear from you!
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Nutrition is such a loaded topic. I don't frequently talk about how or what I eat because I don't want to get into an emotional discussion with someone about why one way is right and another is wrong. There is no one right way to eat. Everyone is going to need to experiment and determine their specific dietary needs. With this said, let me tell you about the changes I have made in the last year.
I have been a vegetarian since I was 15 years old. I never liked meat. It always bothered me. It was easy to exclude from my diet, but way too easy to fill that hole with junk food. In all of this time, the only vegetarian I have ever lived with is my 4 year old daughter. I am very used to people eating meat around me. I do buy meat for my family. I am VERY particular about what meat and dairy I buy. I buy local/clean/antibiotic and growth hormone free. It may cost more, but, I do the best I can. I believe that nutrition is a choice. It needs to be a conscious choice. And I will do the best I can to avoid factory farming. It's not perfect, I know.
I made some significant changes last year. And they have changed my life. I am still a vegetarian, and I frequently flirt with a vegan lifestyle. Being plant powered is a commitment that I feel strongly about and I know it works for me. With this said, I still wasn't feeling right. I struggled with hypoglycemia and I could never get my race nutrition right. I suffered from stomach distress and random aches and pains and creakiness. I knew sugar was a problem.
I must say, I LOVE sugar. For me it is a crazy addiction. I will always be thin, but my body composition changes when I eat too much sugar. And once I start eating sugar, I don't stop. I want MORE. And if you're wondering, for me, I have to be mindful about the amount of fruit I consume. Too much fruit doesn't work for me. This is individual to me and I encourage you to experiment on your own with fruit. And I am referring to anything with the -ose on the end of it i.e. sucrose, fructose, dextrose, etc. I mean PROCESSED SUGARS. And I believe they are poison.
I began to read and research. The resources that I found very helpful: Rich Roll podcast, Vinnie Tortorich World's Angriest Trainer podcast, and endurance athletes Scott Jurek and Brendan Brazier. I made a commitment to a no sugar and no grains diet. At first, I felt the need to feed the obsessive demon that lives inside me and I tracked my calories, fat, proteins, carbohydrates. I eventually was able to let that go. There is no need to me to track calories and such. I learned to eat when I was hungry. I quickly became "fat adapted" and I unintentionally end up occasionally living in a ketogenic state.
The Standard American Diet (SAD) encourages us to eat a high carbohydrate and low fat diet. We have been taught that when we want to lose weight we should cut our calories and exercise more. NO NO NO! This is total bullshit. And at this point in time, it actually makes me angry. This diet that we've all been sold leads to weight gain and loss yo-yo dieting and on a more dangerous front, disease and metabolic syndrome(s).
My nutrition includes a high fat diet (avocados, nuts, and seeds), moderate protein, lots of veggies, and simply no sugar / no grains. Keep it simple. I got this message. I had no intention of losing weight, but in the course of a year I still weigh the same, but I am a size smaller. I have lost body fat and leaned up. I also learned that our body composition is based on roughly 80% nutrition and 20% exercise. No more starving myself and exercising more. This only creates stress on the body and this stress will show itself in the form of weight gain, moodiness, and fatigue.
A bit of a side note here…. I have learned it is important for me to enjoy life. I will occasionally enjoy a favorite of mine such as corn tortillas, or a few crackers here and there. I am not triggered by ingesting grains. However, when I attempt to put a little life into living with sugar such as ice cream or candy, well I enjoy it but I pay a price and feel crappy afterward.
My race nutrition has also changed significantly. I no longer consume the sugar filled gels, shot blocks, and the like. No more sugar filled drinks in the name of sports nutrition. I will not consume sugar or fake sugar. I have adapted and typically I don't need to consume anything while exercising until about 2-3 hours after I start. I drink mainly water, and I have also been experimenting and found positive results with the plain UCan mixed in my water bottles. I no longer "bonk" when I don't eat. I simply get hungry. When exercising it is also VERY important for me to take electrolyte tablets. I like SaltStick tablets. Electrolytes are CRUCIAL! This is what keeps you from cramping up. And if you attempt to get the proper amount from a sports drink, the amount of sugar you will consume to get adequate electrolytes will most likely cause stomach distress.
This nutritional journey has been interesting to say the least. I learned that I was doing it all wrong. And what we are being inundated with from the media is crap. Ditch the processed sugar. NOW. This is crucial. I have learned that plant powered nutrition that excludes sugar and grains is GOLDEN for me. It has changed my life.
I encourage you to experiment. And let me know how it goes!